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|Monday, December 9th, 2013|
my uncle is over
he came to borrow some super glue from me to fix something
i went and found it & things have been fixed, he did that with my mom
i did a bunch of stuff online
i made some food (well, preped it, didnt eat it)
then i went home & had a shower & did some cleaning
came back here & he was still here, they were watching a show
which is fine, he doesnt have a tv, so yeah...
i came back in here to use the computer
he is not doing anything to bother me or annoy me
i just feel antisocial and want to go sit and eat some food and watch tv by myself
(well, with my mom too)
but he is not gone
i have done about all i can (or want) on this dumb machine
& i am getting rather hungry, i have not eaten yet
but i do not want to go out there and eat & 'visit'
i hope he leaves soon
i think he is leaving
|Sunday, December 8th, 2013|
i think i am going to make caramels for people for christmas
i dont know
i have to give it a try
oh, i need to buy some cream.. maybe not tomorrow?
it will all depend on how the first batch turns out
i ordered a few things online at the beginning of nov. & am still waiting for a few of them
i hope they get here soon
also i have done 0 christmas shopping
not that i really do christmas shopping, i try to make things
i need to make christmas cards, i at least do that
& i have an idea of what i want them to look like
so that is a big plus
i went to the bethlehem walk yesterday with my sister
i have wanted to go to that for years
it was pretty neat
very well organized
inside the 'city' there were people walking around holding little chickens that i got to pet
& a little bunny
it was so nice being able to pet a little animal
i miss having a little animal to pet
i miss timmy a whole lot, but i also just miss having an animal in the house
we have 2 birds, baby & kujo, but neither of them allow themselves to be handled
it would be so nice if i could pet them & give them scratches
but baby is incredibly incredibly shy & kujo is .. weird. he will come right up close to me
but he does not want to be touched & i do not want to be bit by his big beak
i am listening to christmas music
it has been so so sooo cold lately
there has been this horrible gigantic cold front or whatever over the whole .. continent
watching the news, there is crazy cold weather everywhere, yikes.
we were right in the center of it, but it is moving south a bit finally
the temp is going up to the low -20s & windchills out of the -30s finally
|Wednesday, December 4th, 2013|
it is cold out there!
i was supposed to go with my cousin to the art gallery today
but she was held up in traffic
her drive home from work, which is not supposed to take long (15min i think?), took her 2.5hours!
she took me to go pick up my finished pottery
and by that time we figured that by the time we got to the art gallery we would have an hour or so to look around before it closed, so maybe go another day
instead we went and picked up some food & stopped at micheals to look around
this weekend has the potential to be quite busy for me
tomorrow hopefully i will be going to my nieces school christmas concert
also there is a christmas craft show that i usually to go every year with my sister happening this weekend
& hopefully we might be going to the bethlehem walk
i have wanted to go to that for years & for whatever reason i have never been able to go
but my sister had brought it up & wanted to go this year, so it might happen
i also found out about a festival of light at the zoo that starts this weekend, but is on till next weekend
so hopefully i will do that next week!
the high point of this past few days was trying a purple passionfruit!
i have never tried a passionfruit before!
i mean, i have tried it in things, like in juice & smoothies & whatnot
but never an actual raw fresh passionfruit!
i dont think i have ever even seen one before, so i was super excited when i saw them at the grocery
& they were only $1.50!
|Monday, December 2nd, 2013|
too many pins!
i am looking at pinterest & it seems like certain people just pin every single picture they see on a site or a persons board they are looking at or whatever
there are like a gazillion baskets that all look the same, then a gazillion white beds, then a gazillion of whatever else
i suppose that is fine & whatever, but gosh. maybe just a million instead of a gazillion would do?
also this machine is ticking me off
maybe the mouse is in need of new batteries or something? but i keep pressing on things (like a link or something) and nothing happens, i have to press 60 times before it works
i went to my cousins birthday get together tonight
that went well
yesterday i went to 'festival of trees' with my sister, dad & nieces
it went pretty well
it was funny, gwen was really excited about seeing santa
& so we stood in line and waited
but when we finally got to the front she was horrified & did not want to go
my sister ended up picking her up & taking her to him & it all was ok
... there was this ..winter wonderland? area that had these arctic/antarctic creatures
polar bears, penguins, etc...
& it also had these 'walls' with reindeer heads mounted on them & plaques with the names of santas reindeer
i am assuming that whoever made this was thinking it was supposed to be festive?
but we thought it was kinda morbid & creepy
i am not sure what the number over the name was for?
theres other stuff, but i will type to you later.
have a lovely week world.
|Thursday, November 28th, 2013|
hello world, its me, nobody
..well, that was encouraging.
i feel stiff today
i should have got up and went & had my blood done because my neutrophils are low
& the pharmacy sent a note & the doc called telling me i need more bloodwork
neutrophils are parts of your white blood cells that help fight infection
i am on meds that require me to get regular blood work to test my white blood cell count
& i typically have borderline low levels
when they dip down below a certain level i am supposed to have my blood done more frequently
..twice a week actually factually
though i never do that, ick, too much work, maybe once a week
i did "work" today though
went through a box of papers & put things in chronological order
doing 'secretarial' type things which are my job
though i really need to implement a better system
and by better i mean ANY
so that things are not so disorganized at the end of the year
i suppose i should be doing payroll too
i kinda want to go to this craft fair this weekend
its the royal bison art & craft fair
i have actually only been to it once before i think?
& if i remember correctly it was kinda neat
i do not really have anyone to go with
& bussing it is kinda .. long.
so i probably wont go
i should go
i also want to go check out the new makerspace at the downtown library
i was going to go on tuesday after my drB appointment, but that was cancelled
so i did nothing that day
i really need to start pushing myself to do things
i have just been feeling so stiff and tired the past while
i have however been walking on the treadmill
so, at least that is something
|Saturday, November 23rd, 2013|
i have decided that my issue with my sister is not petty & i am officially annoyed at her
not that i will say or do anything
but i think i have noticed a pattern of her being unresponsive unless it is something she wants
she could have easily sent me a quick email saying sorry i am busy
and she could have easily talked to me briefly the couple of times she has talked to my mom in the past few days
or even just asked my mom to relay a message to me
but she chose to do none of these
& this is really rather rude
i can understand if she is busy, but especially after spending all that time talking with my mom, she had lots of time...
my dad ended up taking me to the one event that i had specifically asked her about
and later on my aunt called me to invite me to go with her to it as well
& my cousin is possibly going with me to another thing tomorrow
even though she is not sure she can go because she has an assignment, but at least she has been communicating with me through short emails
i already pretty much never email my brother's family because they NEVER respond
i think it might be the evils of text messaging taking over the world
& i have no use for that
but oh well
i never stay upset at people because i really do not have the energy for it
and perhaps thats sad because it shifts into indifference
i have to go help my mom clean out a closet
& i think i am going to try and make this buffalo roasted cauliflower
my dad bought me a head of cauliflower even though the damn stuff is super expensive right now for some reason
except i dont think we have any hot sauce
i think i am just going to try it with bbq sauce instead
i really want to make this
but i do not have all the ingredients
i am chasing after the cauliflower65 i had at taste of edmonton, it was this bright red sweet & slightly spicy goodness, i have tried online recipes & they are not the same at all
|Thursday, November 21st, 2013|
i have been in a bit of a slump mood wise
& this has not helped
i sent my sister an email a few days ago asking her about going to this 'just christmas' thing tomorrow
& also just a general email because we generally keep in touch & i have not heard from her
but she has not got back to me
so then earlier tonight i called her but she didnt answer it just went to leaving a message
so i did, just saying i was calling to see how she was
but she just called here
i heard her talking to my mom on the phone
& i had assumed that she was going to talk to me after she was finished talking to her, so i didnt say anything
but then my mom just hung up the phone
& this stupid crappy mood i have been in has me feeling all rejected
i mean, its not a huge deal
it kinda sucks because if she was calling here she could have at least talked to me for a min.
that was kinda rude
or responded to my email
but its not like this is the first time she has done this
this being been too busy or occupied with other things to reply to emails, etc..
......the thing that is really bothering me
is that i changed my meds several weeks ago
& i am worried that this mood i have been in is
not to do with hormones
not to do with crappy weather
not to do with outside events
& that i will have to up my dose again
i was so so hoping that i could decrease it
i was wanting to even decrease it more than i have
|Wednesday, November 20th, 2013|
i had my last day of pottery today
all i did was glazing
it was far more exhausting than it should have been
i went to get all my pieces & one was missing
the bell i made
the one thing that i wanted to accomplish this whole time
i found it on a shelf & it had not been fired
he is going to fire it now
& if i take the class again in jan. i can finish it then
otherwise too damn bad.
i ended up with 2 cups, 1 small cup, a tiny bowl
a vase sort of thing & an egg shaped covered dish?
the egg shaped thing was the best of them all and i painted some details with stain
& that stupid stain got everywhere, so, ick.
also the vase thingy looks like it will turn out nice
the other stuff is ... mediocre
we were to bring in foodstuff for a sort of goodbye thing
& i made white chocolate brownies (which are delicious!) yesterday
i made a batch & then went to cut them and they were stuck in the pan
even though i had greased it well
so.. i ended up making a second batch to take with me
& it ended up that only around 4 were taken
oh well, i guess i will freeze some & have them for later.
i am really tired today
i slept really deeply last night & had to be woken up
i have a drB2 appointment tomorrow, which i am not terribly looking forward to
apparently it was horrifically cold out today
but is supposed to warm up a lot this weekend
i really hope it is not too cold out tomorrow
because i have to walk several blocks to get to the office
ugh. so sleepy.
|Sunday, November 17th, 2013|
its cold out
it snowed the other week & is officially winter
by winter i mean cold & snow covered ground for the next 6 months or so
maybe it will be a bit nicer and only last 5 or 4
luckily fall did hang on until mid november, we did have a snow-less halloween
i have brought out my boots, which have holes in them & i need new ones
i HATE shoe shopping, ick. well, i dont know, i am just picky i guess.
& its time to double up in layers & dig out my mitts & scarves
i need to find my mitts
hopefully its not that cold this week
because i have 2 appointments
& i dont like standing outside in the cold waiting for the bus
|Friday, November 15th, 2013|
i did not use the computer at all yesterday
so when i checked my email tonight i got news that the lindt store is having their midnight madness sale tonight!
my sister has been waiting to go to that
(& i wanted to too! cheep-expensive-ish chocolate, yum)
usually on those nights they have almost everything half off
we had gotten groupon-type coupons a little while ago too, so an extra half off makes it a supper deal!
so, i went to go print out my coupons and.. confusion??? ... they expired! yesterday!!!
what the hell?
i was almost certain they were good until christmas?
also, dont those places usually email you a little warning saying hey, your coupon is about to expire soon you better use it?
never got one of those.
so.. hopefully we will get to use the base amount we paid for already tonight
fingers crossed and all that
+ on the lindt website i saw they had these new coconut chocolates that i really really want to try
yum yum yum
this is all not so good on my whole eating well thing though
however, we did not buy a bunch of halloween chocolate this year & the box my mom did buy did not have stuff i really liked in it, so i have not binged on junk food this halloween
so instead i will get to eat some yummy chocolate instead
(i like chocolate)
|Wednesday, November 13th, 2013|
i am tired
i had pottery today
& i think that one girl in the class is just, well, kinda a jerk
the one leading the conversation that was rather cold towards me last week
there was an episode during the class where across the room something was said to someone
i didnt quite hear, but the girl next to me said to me something like
i dont think she (the rude girl) likes her (a girl who sits at my table), girl b said ____ and then girl a said _something snarky_
and then.. i was trying to do something at the wheel and she (the rude girl) was sitting right next to me & i asked her a direct question & she totally ignored me!
i mean, a shrug or a grunt or some sort of dismissive gesture would be something, but no, totally ignored me
& i know she heard me
& its not like she is some quiet shy person who keeps to herself, she is loud & hardly introverted
well, whatever, i really do not care.. just making note.
pottery went ok today. it was the 2nd last class
i almost accomplished everything i wanted to
i wanted to make a cup for my cousin, but then the cup i made was too big
so i decided to stick a handle on it and keep it for myself & make ANOTHER cup for my cousin
so, 2 cups instead of 1
i finished carving some lines on my coil pot
& then lastly i had some little bowls that i had made on the wheel that i needed to trim
i ended up trimming 1 of them & it turned out ok
but then i ran out of time & the other 3 got trashed. oh well.
i think i am going to take the class again & i think i am going to do a bunch of work on the wheel
i feel a bit discouraged because i have not quite got the hang of it yet
so i feel kinda like an idiot
the way i learn is kind of different than what it seems everyone else is doing
i think what i need to do is write it all down and make myself a step by step instructions that i can look off of
because i am more visual
when the teacher says something like 'you take your left hand and put it against the side' or something like that
i have to stop and mentally picture everything before i can do it
i think if i made myself a little cheat sheet i would do much better!
& if i started working on the wheel from day 1, then by day 5 or 6 if i still really sucked at it i could just totally give up on it & do hand building for the rest of the classes
anyway, i am type thinking, i should stop.
i have also been so thirsty the past couple days
& i drink, but i still am left with that thirsty feeling in my mouth
not dry mouth, but, i dont know. yick.
also i found a recipe for vegan cheesecake.
rhubarb vegan cheesecake! i dont think i have any rhubarb frozen, but vegan cheesecake sounds scary & amazing, i might have to make it.
|Monday, November 11th, 2013|
my stomach kinda hurts
& my insides are all upset
yesterday i felt pretty icky & i slept in really late
i slept a lot today too
& do not feel like doing much of anything
i am glad i do not have a drB appointment tomorrow
so i can sleep a lot again tomorrow too
i hope i feel better by wed. because i have pottery
& its the last class to work on things (and the second last class ever)
i brought home one thing, a .. vase? sort of thing to work on
i need to carve a design in it
i think i am going to work on it tonight, i hope it works out good
its a technique i have never tried before
hopefully i do not end up just making a mess!
|Saturday, November 9th, 2013|
..hmmm... i was just looking up what was going on at the museum
my niece has next week off of school & i was thinking maybe my folks might want to take them to the museum (with me)
but it just occurred to me that we all would not fit in the car
the 2 girls still need to sit in carseats, so that takes up the whole back row... my plans are foiled!
i could always take the bus & meet them there
its not too much farther than drBs, but it does take an hour or so & multiple transfers & stuff.
i reduced some of the meds i am on a few weeks ago
& i am not sure how it is making me feel
but i think i am feeling a bit different, i am not sure exactly how?
i have been dreaming a bunch lately (well, remembering when i wake up ya know)
& it just occurred to me now that that might be related
i was telling my mom, i have had 2 different dreams on 2 different nights about losing my shoes
they were different locations but each time i took off my shoes while i was doing something
then i decided i should go back and get them & hold on to them & not just leave them there
but when i go back i can not find them
i have red chucks & there are lots & lots of different pairs of shoes there but they are all different sizes
big shoes, little shoes, etc.. all like mine but not mine
& i am looking all over the place & seeing all these shoes all over the place but none are mine
dreams are weird
|Thursday, November 7th, 2013|
i have been in an odd mood lately
kinda feeling like i do not want to do anything
i have been spending a lot of time playing stupid games online & being antisocial
my pottery class is going.. eh.
things are not turning out so great in that
my clay seems to be overly dry, i am making mistakes and overworking it
yesterday i wanted to make this stupid bowl thingy but i kept not rolling out enough clay
so then i had to re-wedge it with more and re-roll it and then by the time i had enough and tried to lay it out over the bowl i was using as a mold it just cracked and broke
i did make a bell which is one of the things i wanted to accomplish
last class i did some work on the wheel, which i am not very good at
and i was supposed to trim my little bowls yesterday but they were very very dry (some were a few weeks old)
so i was supposed to wet them and put a damp sponge on them and wrap them in plastic
which i did
and then i checked them at the end of class
& i think that i put too much water in there and ruined the rims
i think they were sitting in a puddle of water and got damaged
i should have turned them around so they were sitting on their base and not on the rim
i just peeked at them and saw that and covered them back up quickly because i just did not want to deal with it
so i think next week those will probably end up in the garbage
i also have this .. i dont know, excluded? cold? feeling in there with some of the people
kinda like i am tolerated but they wouldnt actually have a conversation with me
there has been times where there has been a conversation going on across the room & i feel i have something to add in that is relevant to the topic & it seems like they will stop to let me speak but then just go on with the conversation as if what i had to say is nothing
& its not like i care what anyone thinks of me, but it is a little disheartening when things like this happen
fortunately most of the people in the class are really nice
& the people sitting at my table are great people
i only have to deal with the negative people at the end of class & actually i really do not have to deal with them at all
i might take pottery again
i think the next class starts in january
& if i do that i think i will just start right away working on the wheel
the first few classes i might not come up with anything, but practice practice practice
i also am still interested in taking a sculpture course
but that is only available at a location that is kinda far away
& i might hold off on that till the weather is a bit nicer
i can take 3 classes in a year with my access card which entitles me to a discounted price
otherwise i have to pay full price and these classes are over $200!!! (too expensive!)
anyway, enough venting
|Friday, November 1st, 2013|
i went over to my sisters yesterday & we watched a movie & got lingnan
there was not too many kids, only about 13 or so
i think my mom got around 15?
you would think there would be more kids here because we are right between 2 elementary schools
we put up the ghost lights that i got last year after halloween for super cheap!
they looked really neat!
today we went around to a few places to see if we could find some candy & stuff on sale
but there really was not much at all
i got a wig for my sisters dog!!!
|Friday, October 25th, 2013|
i went shopping with my sister looking for banners to decorate the hall for my grandma's birthday
we were hoping for something to say 'happy 99th birthday'
unfortunately they only seem to make things rounded to the nearest 10s
BUT they do make ones that you can customize, so we got one like that!
tomorrow we have to go buy a few more things for the dinner & whatnot
the whole thing is on sunday & hopefully it will be good times!
today was also a family dinner for my niece scarlett's 7th birthday
i got her a few little things
one of the things i gave her was this little magic set i found while cleaning my house
it had a price tag from 'liquidation world' on it for 60¢!
she seemed to like it! there were only a few little tricks in there
but by the end of the night she was not so bad at 3 different magic tricks!
i had painted newspaper for wrapping paper
i think i might get a couple prints to send as postcards
as i do with lots of things
|Wednesday, October 23rd, 2013|
i had pottery today
i am disappointed because i made a bowl 2 weeks ago (to make a berry bowl colander thing)
so i went to do some work on it & i had not covered it up well enough & it was dried up, so it is garbage!!!
the instructor said that next week we are going to work on the wheel & make plates
that might be good? i think it will be easier than making bowls anyway since my bowls go all wonky
i think i only have 3 more classes? & i still want to try & make some bells that i saw online & a colandererer thingy
i feel like i am running out of time
this week i did not make anything! we just did some glazing
i could always do another round of classes next season!
for some reason i feel a bit intimidated by this teacher, i am not sure why?
there are lolls in the class time when i could be just doing my own thing but because of feeling intimidated i am just following along with what he is teaching and not necessarily being as productive as i could be
other people in the class who have taken classes before are just doing their own thing, so its not like i couldnt
i have learned (is that the right word, learned? it sounds wrong) a bunch of new things from him though!
so thats always good!
i need to trim the bowls i made last week & i want to try the plates next week
also i have to carve a design in the pitcher i painted this week
other than that i really want to try those bells & berry bowl.. i think i can do it!
|Monday, October 21st, 2013|
i have this subscription to a magazine that is overdue
i have been putting off renewing it because i was not sure if i wanted to
& then i discovered this:
to renew it i have to pay $40
but to order a new subscription is only $30
whats up with that?
makes no sense.
you would think that they would reward people who have been subscribers for a few years?
i think i am going to cancel my account
& then try ordering a new subscription for $30
i also have discovered that through my library i have access to a whole bunch of different magazines online
not this particular one, but a bunch of interesting ones
so, thats kinda neat!
|Sunday, October 20th, 2013|
i went to the "art from the unknown" art show today with my cousin
pretty much it is a art show for nonprofessional?? artists, i guess? to sell their stuff
we did a quick run through the farmers market too (we got there about 13min before it closed)
& then we went for blizzards @dq, i had a coupon!
at home i have been looking up information on voting, ick.
i have to vote on monday for a new mayor, a councilor for my ward & a school board trustee
i know/knew little to nothing about any of these people
i could just vote for the people who are already in, but our current mayor is not rerunning or whatever
after reading a bunch of stuff & talking to my dad (who knows more than i do) i have come up with my decisions
except maybe councilor?
i walked down to the river to meet my sister & her dog
& it is a horribly horribly windy day out today
& i am still cold from it, i need to put socks on or something.
|Monday, October 14th, 2013|
today was a holiday
& for some reason family decided it would be a good idea to go to the park & take family photos
i HATE having my photo taken
so, this was not a good idea for me
but i went along like a good girl
it was really nice out & being out in the fresh air was good
all the leaves are turned or have fallen
its fun to walk through all the fallen leaves
i walked through a little path through the trees next to the river
it was fun playing with my nieces
after all that we went to my sisters place for supper
it was pretty much left over thanksgiving food
there was not much for me to eat besides potatoes though
for the past several days i have had a mild headache
that has not been pleasant
i wish it would go away!
i think i need some caffeine or something like that?